// yeah so you guys know ive left pt but im still keeping this blog open! im going indie and stuff and if you guys dont want to rp with me anymore i understand, but if you do then of course im still happy to rp with you guys! i guess relationships would change slightly but yeah i dunno
anyway yeah just letting you guys know„ and stuff„„ ok bye
OKAY I’M BACK AFTER BEING GONE FOR A FEW WEEKS
NOT THAT ANYBODY PROBABLY EVEN NOTICED
I DON’T KNOW IF ANYONE IS EVEN AROUND RIGHT NOW
BUT ASSUMING MAYBE SOMEONE IS
HI I’M ONLINE AND SHIT
UHH? I’VE NEVER HAD A MALE MATESPRIT AND THAT’S THE CLOSEST WE GET? I GUESS I’VE HAD A MALE KISMESIS AND THAT’S… CLOSE ENOUGH?
UGH OKAY SO
DEAR EX BOYFRIEND
I DON’T EVEN REALLY THINK YOU COUNT AS AN EX SINCE WE JUST SWITCHED QUADRANTS THIS WHOLE THING IS DUMB I DON’T KNOW WHY I REBLOGGED THIS
BUT THANKS FOR… I GUESS NOT BEING AN ASSHOLE LIKE YOU COULD HAVE BEEN. I APPRECIATE THAT. IT’S NICE HAVING SOMEONE I CAN TALK TO EVEN IF I NEVER THOUGHT WE’D EVER BE HOW WE ARE NOW? IT’S REALLY WEIRD BUT HONESTLY I THINK I PREFER IT.
I DON’T KNOW?? THANKS AND ALL THAT SHIT UGH
DEAR EX BEST FRIEND
I DON’T REALLY KNOW WHAT THERE IS TO SAY HERE THAT I HAVEN’T ALREADY SAID?
OR WHAT WHOEVER SENT THIS IS HOPING I’LL SAY?
THIS QUESTION IS STUPID I DON’T HAVE ANYTHING LEFT TO SAY TO MY EX BEST FRIEND SORRY
I will write about the following, leave one in my ask box.
Dear person I hate,
Dear person I like,
Dear ex boyfriend,
Dear ex girlfriend,
Dear ex bestfriend,
Dear future me,
Dear past me,
Dear person I’m jealous of,
Dear person I had a crush on,
Dear [insert URL here],
I’m not good enoug)( for )(im. And Y—-ES! I did do it for mys)(ell. I )(ate to say it but I will not )(old mys)(ell back. I need to do somefin for myself, somefin t)(at will lead me to being w)(ole and )(appy. Becoming moirails wit)( Cronus was t)(e first step in t)(at, and t)(e second is ending Sollux’s matesprit wit)( me. I am sorry for it. And I’m sorry t)(at t)(is will no doubt mean t)(e end of us being fronds ever again.
And I reely doubt t)(at you and I are ever going to be fronds again. I know t)(at you will be angry at me, but t)(is will all lead to somefin better. And betides, its not like )(e would take me back after I )(urt )(im like t)(at.
I am not sorry t)(oug)(.
I’M NOT ASKING YOU TO BE SORRY! I’M ASKING YOU TO ADMIT THAT YOU DID IT FOR YOU, BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO, NOT FOR SOLLUX’S SAKE. IF YOU WERE UPSET WITH THINGS, IF YOU DIDN’T WANT TO BE WITH HIM ANYMORE, FINE! PEOPLE CAN’T HELP HOW THEY FEEL, AND SOMETIMES PEOPLE FORGET THAT, THEY FORGET THEY’RE NOT ALLOWED TO FEEL THINGS AND BE AFFECTED BY THOSE FEELINGS, AND THEN THEY MAKE UP EXCUSES SO THEY DON’T LIKE, GET IN TROUBLE??? FOR FEELING THOSE FEELINGS. AND THAT’S SO STUPID! JUST BE HONEST.
I’M NOT MAD YOU BROKE UP WITH SOLLUX, I’M MAD YOU USED A DUMB REASON TO JUSTIFY IT, AND I DIDN’T SAY WE COULDN’T EVER BE FRIENDS AGAIN. IT’S NOT LIKE THIS WAS A SERIOUS BETRAYAL AND I AM PERSONALLY AND DEEPLY WOUNDED BY IT. I MOSTLY FEEL BAD BECAUSE SOLLUX IS GONNA PROBABLY BE A WRECK, BUT THEN HE’S GONNA BE ALL TOUGH AND *PRETEND* HE’S NOT A WRECK BECAUSE HE DOESN’T WANT TO LOOK WEAK, BECAUSE WHO WANTS TO LOOK WEAK?
I’M GETTING OFF TOPIC
THE POINT IS, THANKS FOR BEING HONEST ABOUT THE MAIN REASON YOU CALLED THINGS OFF. AND I HOPE IT DOES MAKE YOU HAPPIER! IT’D BE PRETTY DUMB IF YOU CALLED IT OFF FOR NOTHING SO, MAKE IT COUNT.
I am going to stand up for w)(at I said. You’ll sea in a w)(ale t)(at w)(at I did was for t)(e best. Sollux is a good troll, and I still love )(im a lot. I alwave will I t)(ink. But )(e’s strong and )(e will do just fin wit)( out me.
)(e )(as you after all.
I DIDN’T SAY HE WOULDN’T BE ABLE TO GO ON WITHOUT YOU BUT YOU’RE WRONG IF YOU DON’T THINK YOU WERE DOING ANY GOOD, AND YOU CAN STAND FOR WHAT YOU SAID ALL YOU WANT BUT YOU’RE STILL WRONG, SORRY. WHAT WILL I SEE IN A WHILE? THAT SOLLUX IS CAPABLE OF RECOVERING FROM A BREAKUP? I DON’T THINK HE’S INCAPABLE OF RECOVERING FROM A BREAKUP, I KNOW HE’LL BE OKAY BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN HE WON’T BE AS GOOD AS HE WAS BEFORE.
AND YOU KNOW SOLLUX AND I AREN’T AS CLOSE AS YOU APPARENTLY THINK WE ARE? I MEAN WE’RE FRIENDS BUT IT’S NOT LIKE I TALK TO HIM EVERY DAY OR ANYTHING? WE DON’T TALK ABOUT OUR FEELINGS OR OUR RELATIONSHIPS OR… I MEAN THE MOST THE TWO OF US HAVE EVEN TALKED ABOUT THAT IS SOLLUX INSISTING I TAKE MEENAH ON A DOUBLE DATE WITH HIM AND YOU. I DON’T KNOW WHY YOU THINK I’M GOING TO BE ABLE TO HELP HIM IF YOU COULDN’T. YOU’RE CHEERFUL AND YOU’RE CONSIDERATE AND YOU’RE KIND, AND THE CLOSEST I CAN DO IS PLAYFULLY TEASING AND THEN APOLOGIZING FOR BEING AN ASSHOLE.
THE POINT IS, IT’S IDIOTIC TO SAY THAT YOU BROKE UP WITH HIM TO HELP HIM. IF YOU DON’T WANT TO BE WITH HIM ANYMORE THEN FINE! AT LEAST BE HONEST. THIS WHOLE THING IS STUPID, PEOPLE KNOW WHAT THEY WANT, THEY DON’T NEED SOMEONE ELSE TO DO IT FOR THEM.